Tired

I have so much to say, so many thoughts taking up what little space I have left in my head! Unfortunately, I am so freakin' tired right now I can barely hold my eyes open. I want to post pictures, talk about my beautiful family, say funny, witty things that will make people think I am wonderful ;-) all kinds of things... but alas I shall not. I shall go to bed. Good night, sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite.

Hooray!

J is coming back from CA tomorrow evening! Hip-hip-hooray! I've missed him so much. Him being gone has made me realize that I COULD be a single mom if I had to (I have been before). It's very hard but I could do it. But most importantly, it has made me realize that I don't want to be and I appreciate the fact that I'm not. I love that I can spend my days with my children and have more time for my family because of my wonderful husband. I love that man!

Thanks

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who sent me emails and gave me nursing advice. I am working on the situation. Please continue to pray for us!

Also J is leaving Wednesday morning to go to California for 5 days/4 nights and it will just be us girls! I want J to have a good time but we are going to miss him so much. I'm so use to him coming home after work and helping me with M for the evening that I don't know what I'm going to do... please pray for safe travel for him and peace and comfort for M, S and me.

abundant grace,
Les

Blogger Play

FYI... go to http://play.blogger.com/ and watch pics as they are loaded onto Blogger in real time. Very interesting to see what kind of pics just randomly come up. If I had the time I could just watch this for hours! Enjoy!

Nursing

Today was a heartbreaking day (again!). My struggles with nursing have left me upset and sad. The week after I had my daughter, I ended up back at the doctor with very high fevers (pushing 104) and lots of pain. Turned out I had a uterine infection and my breastmilk totally dried up. The doc reccommended the herb fenugreek - it has had some success in helping relactation. Well, it helped slightly. I had a little milk and for a while M was latching on really well and nursing for a few minutes before each formula bottle. I was pleased with even this little bit b/c at least she was getting some and the doc told me that it only takes a little to still be beneficial to them healthwise and of course I loved the bonding. However, over the past few weeks she is latching on less and less and in the past few days she has gotten none b/c she cries everytime I try to get her to latch on. It is so frustrating, to not be able to nurture and nourish her in the way I had planned. I do believe God is sovereign in all things, but it still hurts so much to see her cry at me and for the bottle and be so happy when I put the formula in her mouth. I've tried pumping, but nothing, I mean NOTHING, comes out. What little milk I had is going away quickly and I don't want it to! I have started taking a lactation blend of herbs from Whole Foods Market, but it isn't really helping. It seems like everywhere I go I see women nursing and it stings my heart. I really wanted to breastfeed for a long time and it's just not happening. I am hurting...

Back again?

I use to be a blogger and my life got so crazy and hectic that I gave it up. My life is actually busier now than ever before (I have a 10 week old baby and a 13 year old!), but I realize that I miss blogging! So I've started this new one and will hopefully post occasionally... I'll have to see where life takes me. I plan on blogging about anything that strikes my fancy, voicing my opinion where I see fit. Some topics may include - but aren't limited to ;-) - unschooling, being a vegetarian, my family, my friends and aquaintances, and just our life in general! Hope you stop by often and feel free to comment on anything I say. Remember though, this is MY blog... read at your own risk!!!!

BTW, these are my 2 gorgeous girls (S - 13 years old, and M - 10 weeks old)!